sini mariii!

2010-08-23T10:18:00.000+08:00

Tired & sleepy!!
Wow, eversince started working, time flies VERY fast.
haha!
I got nothing to say actually. hmm,
Goodbye.

[I love you more than anything]

2010-08-12T11:48:00.002+08:00

Long time didnt update. Busy working.
Im having high fever, Shaleen's having sore eyes.

Damn its Ramadhan already? Soo early sia.
Oh well, first pay wanna go Geylang oi. haha!
Byebye!

B; Get well soon! =]

[youre hurting me]

2010-07-29T14:44:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU

[The pain just wont go away.]

2010-07-23T09:15:00.001+08:00

You always used to say that you love me every single day. Where have those days gone?

2010-07-23T07:42:00.005+08:00

GO TO HIM! YOU HAVE THE CHANCE! BE HAPPY SINCE YOU'RE NEVER HAPPY WITH ME! GO!!
Goodbye.

[ILOVEU]

2010-07-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

Gue dapat keje kat Hard Rock Cafe siot!! ahaha!! banyak takot!

[Our dreams came true!]

2010-07-08T09:37:00.003+08:00

I feel soo empty. Its like i left with nothing.
Every single thing you said yesterday, thank you for making me realise evrything.
Im sorry to treat you like my girlfriend when we're actually already broke up.
Dont worry, I will start treating you the same as others.
Go & live a happy life w/o me in the picture. Good luck.

[I really give up on falling in love.]

2010-07-01T11:14:00.002+08:00

Bored.
I wanna play Left4Dead & FightNight.
& i wanna buy the new Rockstar game, "Red Dead Redemption" !
ARGH!
Hmm, & ya, i wanna go fishing again.
Makin hitam la aku nanti.
Byebye

[Fcukyou!]

2010-06-21T12:21:00.003+08:00

This song is in my head. haha
This song is really meaningful. aha!

I give up on everything. Whats gonna happen, happen la. I swear i give up on you.
Goodbye.

[Eenie meenie mainee mo lover!]

2010-06-19T09:50:00.002+08:00

ARGH! Baby is on her way to Desaru now. Eventhough its gonna be only 1 day. I still gonna miss her. Now waiting for Az to call me. Gonna fetch Eka at Clementi.
Wah w/o you everything different eh. haha!
Comfirm people gonna keep on asking me where are you. haha!
Well nothing much.
I love you b! Amek gambar banyak-banyak eh ngan camera baru tu. haha!!

[Youre the one thats keeping me alive.]

2010-06-01T10:02:00.003+08:00

The last time i get to talk to her.
On 31st May 2010, yesterday, at 3.55am i've lost my most sporting aunt.
Lots of drama happened at my place when the corpse arrived. I really pity my grandmother. She cant even walk when she saw my aunt corpse.
Aunt face is really 'pretty'. Like soo the suci gitu. ahaha
Everyone cried.

To aunt; Youve been really strong for weeks/months. Youve been fighting every single thing. Now all the pain is gone. Now rest.
I try to be good & We love you.

[Rest In Peace]

2010-05-25T08:04:00.002+08:00

June is coming!
NO plan! Eh wait, got only one plan!
Karaoke & drink with Brother & Shaleen.
After that, no more plan! I dont want go sheesha eh people. haha!
Really bored & hot nowadays.
Nothing much to say.
Goodbye.

[4th June is coming. 3 years Baby. It feels different. IMY.]

2010-05-17T07:37:00.004+08:00

Nothing to say. Just that i wanna go fishing again. Cant wait for this Sunday.
Hot Cold Hot Cold. Lame-lame sakit juga aku.
Goodbye.
[I Love You NUR SHALEEN!!]

2010-04-26T11:08:00.003+08:00

Aunt condition is gettin worst. Grandma is gettin weak seeing her daughter like that. Everyone is praying hard for aunt. But some willing to let her go cause they cant take seeing her suffer like this.
Im stuck at home for weeks cause of grandma & Shaleen. Grandma is ill & Shaleen is revising for her Nlevel. No lepak-lepak for me.
Im addicted to the game Fight Night. DYNAMITE! haha.
Ok im done, the wind is whistling freaking loud doh!!

bye. aku sayang shaleen

[if i were a boy]

2010-04-20T09:18:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not posting much, just got nothing to say.
Hmm,
I don't get why matreps like to stare me. It's like, what did i do till they have to stare me one of a kind? haha! Pathetic.
& all i do is just laugh. Haha! Seriously pathetic.
Ok, nothing much to say. Shaleen is stress about her N levels & im stress to see her stressing. haha! & she kept on repeating, "B, tolong jangan buat i stress." haha!
K i know its my fault. But sometimes she get stress o small matters ive done, like, i didnt lock the door, never wash plates. haha! Funny sia this small girl. haha!
K im bored. Hmm, i wanna go fishing again. Anyone wanna tag along?

Kawan-kawan, sape-sape nak join main Left 4 Dead pagi-pagi? HAHA

[Nur Shaleen Bte Abdullah, u cute doohh!!!]

2010-04-17T17:47:00.002+08:00

There's more fights happening between me & her. & all because of my negative thinking.
Why cant i just trust her like i used to? I'll try my best to change in any way you want me too. I promise.

[two more months & its our 3years. well supposed to be.]

2010-04-06T12:10:00.002+08:00

Boredom is killing me. Seriously, i feel like crying. haha
Ady will be meeting me at 3pm. Lamer perr!!!
argh! Then will be picking up Nur Shaleen.
I wanna go out! Anybody!
I hate weekdays!

[gotta stop thinking bout it]

2010-03-30T09:45:00.002+08:00

Zee, happy now? haha.
I still love girl A but i like girl B.
Girl A doesn't want us to get back together cause she prefers it this way.
Girl B belongs to somebody else. Too late.
Is it the right thing to hold back whatever i'm feeling?
Is it the right thing by not telling girl B how i feel towards her?
Is it the right thing to interfere in girl A's life even were been close for years?
There's more questions in my head that i just don't know how to type it out.
I'm becoming an alcoholic. I need to drink when there's something bothering me.

Hmm, yesterday & today was shocking. Yesterday morning, when she was having her breakfast before going to school, she suddenly call me & say, "B, i love you." It was REALLY shocking. Then this morning at around 3am, i was sleeping & suddenly i open my eyes, she was sleeping, squeezing & hugging me. I was actually perspiring as its really hot but since shes asleep i just stay still & try to go back to lala land. =D
Oh yeah, yesterday lepak with Nurziana Azman & friends. Seriously i was fcuking shy la sey. Looking forward to meet you again k shorty. =D

Goodbye people.

[Nurziana Bte Azman, i like you.]

2010-03-27T18:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was drunk like hell! && fcuking fun lahsey! Drank 2 times. First with Ady, Dust & Shaleen. Second with Eka. haha! At last i got my Amsterdam!!! Thanks ah Ady & Dust! Sayang korang oi. hahaha.
First from 844 Rc to Pm then to 855 Rt then home then to Rc again. haha! 4 of us walk like stupid drunk people. haha! Thank god didnt kena tahan by the police. haha!!
Shaleen walk fcuking fast. haha. Cannot stop. Ady walk on both pathway & grass at the same time. haha! Me & Dust kept on bangin each other. hahaha!!!
Really gerek oi! Cant wait to drink again!
Lets Get Drunk fcukers!

[3 rounds of happiness]

2010-03-25T23:42:00.003+08:00

I wanna get drunk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Who want to join me drink? ha ha.
Seriously, i need to see a psychiatrist. I'm 100% CONFIRM crazy. ha ha!
sigh.

The more you're avoiding me, the more my love for you grows.
Ive tried to stop, but i cant. I guess i'm not strong enough even its been 6months now.
Even though were nothing but just friends, i always thought that you're still mine.
You want you're space, i've given it to you, but when i told you to go home, you refuse.
I wanna stop loving you, at the same time, i want you back.
6 months now & you still did'nt realize what i have done for you. I never get a thank you for all the big things i've done. Instead you only realize all the wrong things i've done.
Please oh please appreciate me. We've been very close for 3 years now, PLEASE appreciate me.

& ya, i hope you're not using me.
& ya girl, i seriously think you are just "layan-ing" me. If you get what i mean.

[ive kept quiet just for you.]

2010-03-21T10:11:00.004+08:00

Sentosa was great but we didnt took pics though. All busy swimming & stuffs. haha
I & Lynn didnt swim, the rest did. Shaleen kena throw, first by Faizal & Utt, second by Faizal & Afiq. Peh tinggi kene lempar. haha
Then i accompany Shaleen go meet her Primary School mates at Siloso Beach. So, from Pahlawan we walk to Siloso. Tiring oi!
Reach there i really feel awkward. Everyone is looking at me. hah! Then Zee came to me shouting my name out loud, feeling awkward again. haha!
Zee; wow youre shorter than i thought you were. HAHA! no offence though. =D
Then she wanna take pic, awkward again. hahaha!
Then go back to Pahlawan, drank 'Scotch'. fuhh! Heaven Babey!! ;D
Reached home at 11.40pm. Sleep till now.
Fun shit oi!!!!
I wanna drink again, it makes me happy. haha!

[im jealous seeing pics of you w/ him.]

2010-03-20T02:23:00.002+08:00

Im crazy, i talk to myself, i easily stress, im a hopeless romantic, im a geek, i got no looks, my REAL personality sucks, im TOO kind, im TOO soft-hearted, im REALLY hot-tempered, i easily give up, im secretive, im irritating & im fake.
& this is why i dont have a girlfriend. Thank you.

[i can never win him. ive lost this heart.]

2010-03-18T11:14:00.001+08:00

Im changing, yes i am. & one day you guys wont even recognise me. Just wait & see.

[im sick & tired of being unappreciated.]

2010-03-17T10:57:00.002+08:00

Tasha trying to do what i do. haha!
Picked Shaleen up. Oh i miss her! My hangover is really-really bad. I cant take it.
I still cant talk or think properly yet. haha.
I still cant walk straight yet. haha!
Irritating you know. Kla, i wanna sleep back. im REALLY tired.
byebye.

2010-03-17T06:50:00.002+08:00

Im awake since 3.20am. I cant sleep. I just feel incomplete w/o her with me. haha!
Be picking her up later on around 9+? Cant wait! Miss her like hell oi!!
Messaged & called her, but she didnt respond. Guess she's asleep then.
Kla, my hangover is really bad now & i just miss Nur Shaleen Bte Abdullah like hell now.
BYEBYE~

[keep your promise, dont leave me. ily]

2010-03-11T11:13:00.002+08:00

At last! Met Ayul last two days. Makin tinggi tu anak. & ya, rindu kau doh. haha!
Well, nothing much to say. Just nowadays are really BORING!
&& 20 march! MINUM YOOK!!!

[aku sayang die oi!!!!!!!!!]

2010-03-06T11:04:00.002+08:00

Hello people.
Im changing to the worst, thats what Shaleen say.
So, gonna change AGAIN.
I really what got into me lately. All like fcuked up. Everybody like fcuked up!
FCUK YOU LA!
hmm, Yesterday record a new vd, Dugaan dari illahi. I sing like zombie sia. Ngantok eh.
hahaha
WAnna view go Youtube search for 'ridwan199469'.
& here's a vd of Shaleen's song, Kepunyaanya. We decided to re-record it but, too many distraction.
Heres the blooper.
enjoy.

2010-03-04T11:05:00.002+08:00

Starting to regret everything but its just too late. Have you ever had that feeling?

2010-03-01T12:00:00.002+08:00

batu dan golek! =D
Bored like shits! I actually have to go & bath now. haha!
Or else ill be late to pick Shaleen later. Well she finishes school at 1.25 but i have to siap at 12. I got some late issues. haha!
I really wanna get drunk lah friends!!!!! I dont know why but drinking makes me relax. haha!
Stupid & weird i know. But its just the way i am. haha
K seriously i got nothing to say & ya the picture above is i who drew it.
Well i was browsing some pics bout tattoo at yahoo & i saw this. So decided to draw it & add some stuff of my own. haha. Cool kan? HAHA!

kla! BYEBYE OI!

[its still hard for to trust you when youre with him. ily]

2010-02-28T07:08:00.002+08:00

Too much things is bothering me.
I cant think straight nowadays.
& ya, its soo fcuking hot sia! Im sweating like hell right now.
I cant even sleep. haha
Shaleen is behind me now, sleeping on the bed. I cant describe the way shes sleeping.
haha!
Hmm, March is tomorrow. I wanna get drunk people! I wanna get things out of my head!
ARGH!!!!!
& ya, the reason i woke up at this time is because, i had a REALLY bad dream.
It made me sweat even more & my heart beat damn fast! haha!
Aight off to play game yaw!
byebye!

[im sick & tired of enemies.]

2010-02-26T08:34:00.002+08:00

Boredboredbored.
This video is taken last month, on 30Jan2010. =D
Sorry my hair masai, suppose to be sleeping. haha
& ending got interruption by mom. -.-'
Enjoy!

2010-02-25T06:25:00.002+08:00

Bullshit, Fcuked up, Boredome.
Nothing much nowadays. Reallyreallyreally BORED!
No event, nothing to do. Everyday slack either at home or 'RT'.
Seriously i have no life. haha!
Things are changing, i am changing. Am i not being myself lately? haha!
Feel like killing people, but no guts to do that. =D
BORED!
Eh ya, why is March so far away!!!!
LET GET FCUKIN DRUNK PEOPLE!! AT LAST!!

[You dont know me]

2010-02-13T23:18:00.005+08:00

Video of Shaleen peforming Single Ladies by Beyonce.

Today was bored yet fun. ??
haha.
Took videos of Shaleen crazy side.

Then she wanna step Ciara jap.
So, took pics of her GHETTO. Untuk semntare sahaje. haha!!
& yes, the stars behind her are real tatts. -.-'
Here the pics.

;haha! this really what happen when the both of us REALLY bored at home. =D

[fever lah fcuk]

2010-02-13T02:28:00.003+08:00

Today went to Bugis with Fir, Az & Shaleen.
It was really last minute. Got the beg i wanted.
Walk-walk, REALLY tireed & hungry.
REALLY difficult to find a spot to eat. haha
Reach hometown, lepak for awhile.
At 11plus. We went back home. Really tiring.
I have a fever.
;dee! your fault. you said i would catch a fever. see t really happen. your mouth masin ah. haha.

Wanna see the pics, view at me FB. Btw, some pics i accidently deleted. SORRY GUYS! haha

[The sweetest thing happen there. It almost made me cry. haha! you know i know.]

2010-02-08T09:01:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was bored yet fun.
k, i dont get myself.
Took some pics, & we caught Az berjiwang to 'Tak ku sangka, tak ku duga song.'
=D
Enjoy the vd. =D

[be uploading more stupid vds of friends =D]

2010-02-07T04:00:00.003+08:00

I cant think straight, i cant even sleep or even just close my eyes.
Thousands of questions is running trough my head. It just cant stop.
Is that really you? Tell me the fcuking truth.
It must be you. I got fcuking BIG proof! Why the hell you wont admit?

[i may have been with you for going 3yrs now, but i still dont know the really you yet.]

2010-02-04T08:14:00.002+08:00

Hello earthlings,
this few days had been great for me. We didnt fight. At last! Peace!! =D
Things been going the way i want it.
I have to use my brains more.
Done!

[What a fcuking great night!!! 04/02/2010}]

2010-02-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

Im BORED!!!!!!!

2010-01-30T09:11:00.002+08:00

Im bored!
My life is going downwards.
& ya, i need to see a psychiatrist[whatever the spelling is].
Well, for some reasons ah. haha!

Hmm, today dont know where to go. Friends told to follow them to Sentosa as theres a Beach Fest. But, i have no money AT ALL. So, not going.
Then got kude kepang at Taman Jurong. But me & Shaleen like lazy to go, so not going also. haha!
Guess we'll be lepak-ing then. =D
K i got nothing.
Goodbye.

[Da fyq, ku da update. Have fun. =D]

2010-01-26T06:14:00.000+08:00

I feel soo used.

2010-01-25T04:14:00.001+08:00

When you left with nothing.

2010-01-21T08:11:00.002+08:00

Chombi is the new cat i found under my blk. =D
Its real name is Chomot, but mom & granny decided to call it Chombi.
Whenever Chombi is at home, Uchuk will be really jealous. Even i cant touch her.
She will start to hiss whenever i get near her. Irritating really.
Well i got nothing much to say. Just that nowadays is really boring. No cigg. -.-'
Bye assholes. =]

[When will Chombi & Uchuk get along?]

2010-01-21T07:12:00.000+08:00

Goodmorning motherfuckers. =]
GoodBye motherfuckers. =]

[How to get you back?]

2010-01-17T00:43:00.003+08:00

Went to Huda & Shida's sister engagement. Eat, lepak-lepak then off to Arab Street, sheesha!
Was fun. Very kecoh! haha
Alot of phototaking. The photos will be at Shaleen's blog. & more at mine & hers tagged & Facebook. Thank you. =]

[Who ever wanna be with her. Dont EVER made her cry or you'll regret. Literally.]

2010-01-14T23:41:00.004+08:00

I dont know what im feeling right now. fcuked up like hell.
She's gonna have a Primary school outing soon with her primary school friends.
That mother fcuking matrep YP will be there too i guess. Shes the one who invited him.
Like stupid kan?! She's the one who hated him soo much, then she invite. Like WTF?!
Then she told me she have outing blablabla.
Nak pergi, pergi je lah. Nak bilang-bilang lagi buat ape? I know i cant say no, cause, who am i to her? Nothing. =]
So wth, just have to smile & say yes.
When will people start to think of my feeling?
I always ask this to myself, 'when will it be ME?'
fcuk kan?

" I dont get you. Are using me or something? Do i look like a toy to you? I have feelings too ok. When i wanna get back with you, you're the one who decline it. When you want something, you'll be all sweet & nice. Than for some reasons you'll be all fussy & shit. I just dont get you. You're full of bullshit you know. & im just saying. =D "

[You say you hate him. But youre the one who is like seeking for him. Are you cheap girl? He 'dumped' you. Get over it. He's a FUCKING MATREP SIAL! You can soo fine someone better la!]

2010-01-12T07:02:00.004+08:00

Ill not be posting for some time. Due to personal reasons.
& btw, thanks to people who accompanied me yesterday. Aprreciate it.
& Ziana, go find new lah. Comfirm can one. haha
Bye motherfcukers.

"Living a life w/o money is hard, living a life w/o love, is harder. & that is why i need you. I dont get it from my family. I dont even feel i have family. Only you know my story."

[eighteen years of suffering. when will i find happiness in life?]

2010-01-11T20:58:00.001+08:00

Something is bothering me & i just cant figure it out.
Why is it becoming harder? i thought i could handle this.]

2010-01-07T07:29:00.002+08:00

Its 2010 & i still dont feel the difference.
My family is still the same, fcuk up faggots.
'She' is still the same, suspicious, mysterious girl. haha!
& for me, still searching for a new one. Why girls nowadays are so hard to get? XD

Am i being used by her people? Am i too nice? Is she taking advantage of me?
These are the questions thats been playing in my mind for quite awhile.
I just cant figure it out.
Oh well im much stronger now. haha! Breaking down easily is soo 2009. haha!
Btw, from Monday been lepak-ing at home with nothing to do. Bored like fcuk sia!
Yesterday waited for Shaleen finish school at 5pm as she got some trip to Millenia Institute. she reaches here at 6.30pm. Went home, then she sleeps. WTF?! Waste my time wait. haha! then she wake up today, off to school. Later come back home again from trip, sleep. Same goes as tomorrow. On weekends, She comfirm wanna play the comp, so 50-50 going lepak. On Sunday night she go home. Waah! So fast?! Fcuked up trip!
Sesiape sudi nak jumpe aku. Aku sumpah mendak lahsey!!

[I wanna play soccer!]

2010-01-04T11:37:00.002+08:00

Im stuck in my room with Uchuk, my cat. Im soo fcuked up with this fcuking family.
Am i even part of this family? I always feel left out. They always put my Brother first. What does he have & i dont? High-education? MONEY?! Fcuk lah you all!!
Sigh.
Shaleens' is at school now. Im bored to the core. Seeing Uchuk like this really make me sad. She soo noisy cause she wanna get out of this room. But theres a fcuking visitor came & shes afraid of cats. Like as if Uchuk is going to hurt her. -.-'
Haiya stressing.
Btw, people, what date isit today? haha. Memories eh? haha.
Kla, hope theres soccer today, I wanna be fcuking thin can? haha. Seriously.

[i hate that i love you, Nur Shaleen.]

2010-01-02T07:14:00.003+08:00

2009 is gone, here comes 2010.
I just cant sleep as Shaleen wake me up at 5.30am. haha.
So decided to post.
Hmm, im gonna be 18 this year. Wow soo fast, & im old. haha
&& i havent enjoy my life much yet. Everything i have or do is a failure. Shit kan?
haha
Ive moved on, shes happy, im happy, we all happy! XD
Ive been asking girls wahts their opinion on what they look in a guy.
Do they always go for looks or the heart?
& its really confusing when i get the answers. haha!
I dont have the looks, but i have the good heart. right? cyeh! haha!
Sigh, finding a new one is difficult after two years not flirting. haha
I guess im just not that good at relationship. haha!
goodbye.
to you; i know i wasnt a great boyfriend before, but i hope ill be a great friend now. =]

[how to be hot?]

2010-01-01T11:22:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year People!!!!

2010-01-01T11:08:00.003+08:00

& this are Shaleen videos. hahaha!

2010-01-01T10:17:00.006+08:00

Countdown was fun, eventhough we celebrated it at our homeplace, Jurong. haha!
Theres only Me, Reena, Shaleen & Afiq. Though its just the 4 of us its still fun.
We drank King Robert/Scotch. We played Texas Poker & Taiti. Who lose had to drink one shot. haha. I cant remember how many shots i took. Before the countdown i drank Amsterdam with Cine as he's going off early, so must layan him. When its near to countdown we watch tv trough cine's hp which he forgot to bring it along with him. haha
We could hear the fireworks from Boonlay. haha! When its already countdown we shouted like hell! haha
The most fun part was, Shaleen's drunk like hell! haha. She cant stop singing. haha!
We took some pics & videos of her. hahaha. Everyone cant take it. haha
Enjoy the pics & videos. =]

[Shaleen; Lady Gaga!!]

2009-12-28T09:26:00.003+08:00

Goodmorning people.
I got a bed in my room. At last, my body is starting to ach from sleeping on the matress for i dont know how long already. Haha.
Singapore Idol; Sezairi won. Yessa! Melayu lagi lahsey!! wuuhuu!
Acually i never watch S.I that much. I always watch the finals. haha!
When Gurmit shouted Sezairi's name, Mom & Brother shouted like hell! Brother was soo excited/happy till i almost fell from the sofa. haha! & Shaleen is busy eating. haha
Eventhough its only Mom & Brother who shouted, but its like more then the two of them shouted also. haha! Very loud!
Well yesterday was really fun.
New bed is really comfortable!
& Uchuk[my cat] scratch Shaleen's nose. -.-'
goodbye.

[Baby, she still loves you. She just wanna have fun.]

2009-12-22T22:13:00.001+08:00

Im going to chop someones head of one day. haha!
pukimak nye matrep pendek! nbccb!
Ah too fcuked up to continue. haha.
goodbye!

[he die lah!]

2009-12-16T09:18:00.002+08:00

Monday was the worst & funniest day of my life. haha!
Seriously i thought i was going to die. haha! & because of that, im not gonna take it again. haha!
My blood's too weak. haha
Shaleen was all happy & hyper. "i feel like lady gaga!" haha!!
& i was shivering like hell. My whole body is numb till i feel like im walking on the moon. XD
haha! thats all folks. goodbye!

[I hope this new guy wont hurt you like the previous.]

2009-12-15T14:22:00.001+08:00

I thought i was going to die!!!

2009-12-11T13:23:00.002+08:00

Second post for today.
I join Facebook. Please add me up people.
Due to boredome, so decided to do one. haha!
Its REALLY complicated. I really need Shaleen to help me out with this. =D
Maybe there will be another post at night. & Shaleen will be sleeping my place today.
Goodbye people.

2009-12-11T12:06:00.002+08:00

See this short girl here? haha~
Be meeting her today. Long time since we last hang out. & i really mean it LONG time.
haha!
Be picking her up at Boonlay Interchange with Az. Then off meet Shaleen at her Blk.
Atiin, semalam unexpected kan? Saper call? haha!
Make sure kau takmu lambat eh! haha! See you later pendek!

[He hurt you, i hurt him! Literally.]

2009-12-07T21:22:00.002+08:00

Wow, im really proud with myself. I really didnt tought that im this strong.
Im finally doing fine with this.
Thanks to Atin for accompanying me & cheering me up when im down. Thank you soo much ah Atin!! You my friend ah! XD
& as for the others, Huda, Az, Yan & Fad, thanks for the ears to hear me out. Appreciates. =]

Lets talk about today. Went down to 855 at 1.30pm. Meet Huda, then Reena. Then the others. Proceed arcade. haha!
Play Datona, got 3rd. Shits! XD
Then played soccer for awhile at 854 under the void deck. Then we proceed street soccer. All of a sudden theres gettin more people at the street soccer. Wth?
Klau gitu bile kite nak main tenteram? XD
&& the girls want to play also difficult.
Ok thats all. Got nothing more. byebye!

[She's now my bestest friend & my beloved loving sister.]

2009-12-06T13:54:00.001+08:00

I wish you all the best with him in the future. =]
I love you...

2009-12-05T03:49:00.002+08:00

Life is much more harder. Im tryin my best to fight it.
Guess what, she found a new lover in life. & im still stuck with myself.
Its easy to flirt around, but its hard to love someone new. Well thats my opinion.
Im tryin to be strong but im just to weak. Acceptin the fact is much more harder.
I hate her and at the same time i do love her. Its too complicated you see.
Ill do anything for her happiness, but mine? sigh.
Now seriously i left nothing but my babygirl, Uchuk.
Only people who close to me knows why.
I dont wanna see her again but the more shes not there, the more i miss her.
But when i see her, i just want her to go away. How the hell am i suppose to live this way.
Her love for me has fade away & now shes like someone new. Well, the guy is way cuter & good looking than me. & thats a hard fight as i dont have the looks at all.
& i lost my talent to sweet talk. XD
How the hell am i suppose to attract girls. hahaa!
Shes behind me now, lying on the 'tilam' beside Eka. haha. Talking nonscence is what they always do. XD
How i really wish to go back time & be the best boyfriend for you.
Ive regretted doing my mistakes. Im soo sorry.
Ill do anything to win this fight. I WILL try my best & do anything to get her back!
First! Have to hilangkan this tattoos of mine. The small one on the wrist is nothing but on my arm thats a BIG prob.
Ill do ANYTHING to get you back!

[Uchuk ill try my best to get mama back with us. I promise.]

2009-12-02T21:48:00.002+08:00

Cute aint she?
Well, she's the only one left who can show me love. Ya, i know she's a Cat but, ah! only cat-lovers understand. XD
Today was totally fucked up! Theres fucking matreps at the street soccer court. I thought of playing cause that motherfucker was there. But when i wanted to play, his gone.
Memang naseb kau ah boy.
I swear ill break his face one day.
&& ya! Guess whose face one day im gonna break too, HER!
That immatured fucking bitch who thinks she knows everything but not!
Argh! Theres just too many to state bout this.
Thinking bout it makes me go CRAAAZZYYYY! haha!
I really pity uchuk soo much. Everyone been ignoring her. Not me! XD
Ah i stop here. Post when im free. Busy with soccer nowadays. =D

[Mummy will not coming back one day uchuk, im sorry, i've tried my best to keep mummy with us. But i failed.]

2009-11-28T10:53:00.003+08:00

Life is harder than i thought.
Weakening every second. Just cant stop thinking bout it.
Eventhough my house is full of people, i still feel lonely.
Im not hungry, even if its chicken. I just need ciggs. Smoke makes me relax & calm down.
I cant wait for later. Meeting someone.
I know its only for one day we didnt met, but i still have no idea why i miss her this much.
For now the one who's been entertaining me, my baby uchuk!
;mama will not be coming back one day, uchuk...

[& i thought i was stronger.]

2009-11-26T22:56:00.002+08:00

Bored, she went back home. Tomorrow Hari Raya Haji. Me & bro will be staying at home.
Only 2 of us. Theres some reason.
Been playing soccer for how many weeks already. Cant remember. haha
Penat sak. Dah brape hari straight. haha
Saturday meeting her again. hehe. Miss her like hell already. I know she dont miss me.
She told me that. haha! Sad kan? hahaha
Kla bye people.

[You know i still love you.]

2009-11-06T09:22:00.003+08:00

FCUKFCUKFCUK!!!!
Im fucking pissed for some reason, dont wanna tell it here.
Life is harder than i thought. Back to playing soccer.
Happiness has never exist in my dictionary.
&& i fcuking!!!!! Hate her!
[sigh] WTH.

[fcuk & go; bitch!]

2009-10-26T08:34:00.004+08:00

Went fishing at Bedok Jetty; East Coast Park yesterday with Mom, Dad, Shaleen & me. From 7am to 4pm. From hot like hell to damn fcuking windy. Its really scary i tell you.
Shaleen & me have sunburn. Fuckfuckfuck!
Shaleen caught 8 fishes.
I caught only 6 fishes. haha!
All tiny-tiny ah. haha!
Dad caught Big fish! =D
Well, let the picture do the talking.
Enjoy!

2009-10-14T08:04:00.002+08:00

guess who people?
Its SHALEEN! haha! Guy name; Shah. haha!
Taken at Chotets house. Bored shit. Chotet was busy spraying his room wall. && Shaleen found Chotets snowcap[i guess] & decided to wear. Than me & Naana gave her idea to act like a guy. Naana the photographer & im the one teach Shaleen to pose like a guy. Well some herself. haha! It really feels akward seeing her like that. haha! She really look like her brother. haha!!!
Outfits;
Snowcap:Chotet's
Shades:Chotet's
Shirt:Shaleen's
Pants:Chotet's XD
Funny ah! && ya, Yesterday Mom birthday! Happy belated mom!! ily! =D
&& here are pics of Chotets room.

Nice huh?

[whats next?]

2009-10-08T08:20:00.002+08:00

Our first hari raya together.['b, how i look?' remember that line?]
I guess i have to move on.
Thank you irah soo much for that. I guess what you say is true.

Youre doing just fine with this break up. I cant believe that youre this strong.
Youre really looking forward to move on i see.
467' is just memories that i wont forget.
I will stop loving you like you told me too, but i know, not totally.
I miss you, i miss us.
Please dont forget your 2nd family here.
We all love you soo much.
&& especially me & uchuk.
I love you Nur Shaleen Bte Abdullah.

[the end.]

2009-10-07T08:30:00.004+08:00

Look how preety she is? haha!
Shes been so strong & happy, i think i should too. Moving on is very hard but for her happiness, ill do anything.
You told me to find new, i can, flirting is fucking easy as you said. But its me, im just not interested. Im just too afraid of everything repeating.
People, i need advise. While ive been with Shaleen, am i a good or bad boyfriend?
Am i being selfish?
Everytime i asked her, she'll get pissed off.

Look B, all this years ive been with you, i never ever thought of hurting you.
The more you avoiding me, the more i want your attention. Im not trying to make your life hard by asking you some questions. But i just wanna know whats wrong & right, cause i still dont.
Help me people.

[only god knows how i feel.]

2009-10-06T09:56:00.003+08:00

Hari Raya 08'
I know shes tall in that pic. Cheating, fcuking high heels!
Aight this year raya is fcuked up all i can say.
Baby's exam is this Thursday & im the one worry-ing. =D

Yes, me & Shaleen have already broked up. But, its not wrong to be close friends right?
She's still my 'Baby' & im still her 'Hubby'. & thats the way it is. =D

She's handeling everything smoothly. She's soo happy. & i think i must too. But its just too fcuking susah lahsey!
Only god knows how i feel.
My happiness is down the drain. Been moody nowadays. hmm.
Find someone new? Sumpah not interested.
Flirt around? Naah! No use.
Whats with me lately?!?!!! I aint the same lahsey!
Haiyo, life is soo fucking hard as 'things' just keep on coming.
&& ya, i got a very strong feeling somethings fishy. Hmm...

[YPYP, jangan sampai tangan ku ke muke kau eh.:)]

2009-10-05T08:55:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, after jalan Raya with Family & Baby.
Went jalan Raya at around 1pm. All green! except Abg lynne & Maman. Went to only 3 house, but when we reach home around 10pm. Weird.
Overall it was totally fun cause Baby was there. Took video of Abg Lynne singing feelingly to Siti's song. haha!
& seriously, i need to loose a few pounds. XD
goodbye people.

[life IS short.]

2009-09-29T10:07:00.003+08:00

i know, kite masai. baru bangon tido. =D

Long time didnt post. Just got nothing to say. Raya was as per normal.
Things went the same but slightly different. Theres always this 'thing' thats been playing in my mind over & over again.
Always not in the mood to talk much nowadays. My jokes are getting harsher, i know. Sorry guys.
I just dont know what got into me.
& friends, paisey kalau ku & shaleen asek tak tron or whatever, malas & boring ah.

Guitar broken! More pissed off!!!
But every pissed off moment of mine, only 1 thing can make me cool down,
Nur Shaleen Bte Abdullah. nyahahaha! XD
Yes i do miss her lahsey!
Kla, goodbye. Mother's cooking 'Ayam Masak Merah'! O.O!

2009-09-20T11:29:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA KEPADA SEGALA UMAT MUSLIMIN DAN MUSLIMAN DI SINGAPURA.
Saya, Andumdum, ingin meminta maaf kalau ada terkasar bahasa. Halalkan lah makan minum saya ye.
Dan kepada kawan-kawan yang tersayang, baik rapat atau tidak, kalau keluar jalan raya tu jangan lah lupa saya ye. Dan juga jangan lah lupa datang rumah saya ye. =D
Lastly, duit raya jangan lupa kasi!
Selamat hari raya kawan-kawan ku!
Rindu korang many-many!

2009-09-14T06:59:00.002+08:00

Wow, you grow up soo fast.
Things really have change. Too many changes that its soo hard for me to cop with.
Yesterday slept at 'Baby's' house. =]
I just cant live 1day without her. haha!
Jangan kate day ah, 30min je dah rindu. haha!
Ended after 2years 3month 1week together. Seriously theres just too much chemistry & too many memories that i just cant forget.
I confessed i still love her like hell. I confessed i miss her. I confessed i wanna get back together.
But i know we cant as you dont wanna. You wanna move on. Fine a real guy & so & so.
I know. YOu ask me to be strong. Im trying my best. I swear.
Just letting you know,
dah ade hidop baru, tolong lah b, jangan lupe keluarge u kat sini.
We all love you.
& especially, Me.
Still known as your 'hubby'.
An.

[why? why you grow soo fast. imy/ily.]

2009-09-13T12:40:00.002+08:00

Im losing this fight. How much longer must i go on?
fcuk kan?!

[routine of my life]

2009-09-11T10:46:00.005+08:00

4th June 2007-11th September 2009.
I swear i will love & remember you till i die. I swear theres no replacements as youre too special. Im sorry for all my mistakes i have done.
Lastly, thank you for giving this much love & changing me to be better.
I will miss you, Nur Shaleen Bte Abdullah. =]

[my first & last love?]

2009-09-08T09:54:00.003+08:00

Back.
Seriously, everyday is soo boring. No mood to lepak-lepak anymore.
All lead to bullshits! Its all because of misunderstanding. Ah whatever lah.
Things settled.
Hmmm, Chotet birthday outing on this Sat. I dont think im going as i have NO money & my family have plans too on that day.
Soo, gotta see first.
As to my friends, pape jumpe Raye je eh. Malas ah nak kluar nowadays. Boring gile. Tu takpe. Tkd bende nak buat pon...
Byebye!
ilyb.

[merepek ppl sumpah aku malas nak layan.]

2009-09-04T09:44:00.002+08:00

Its our 2years 3month anni.
& seriously, i dont feel anything special.
You're too suspicious nowadays. SUMPAH!
When i asked, it always lead to a fight. & soo, keeping to myself is better.
I trust you...
Im sorry if im always grumpy, irritated so & so.
Im just not myself nowadays. Im just been thinking too much.
im sorry.

[i got a feeling, our thing aint gonna go far. im sorry.]

2009-08-30T01:01:00.003+08:00

oh! Its 1.03am! wow!
I swear i miss you like hell now. Ive regreted like hell for my mistakes just now.
I know you're having soo much fun till you forget me now. haha!
I REALLY dont wanna to repeat my mistakes again.
I really regret!
Tc B! Im starting to trust you & i dont know why. =]
Oh i really love you soo much!

[Nur Shaleen Bte Abdullah.]

2009-08-25T12:45:00.002+08:00

2007
Things then were soo different compared to now.
I swear miss us. Whats going on?

[should i?]

2009-08-20T08:32:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was bored! haiyo!
At 1930hrs meet NaanaChotet at playground near by my house.
Sit-sit, talk bout Tattoos, as per usual. hha!
Then while Chotet play basketball, me Naana & baby took pics. haha! mendak siak!!
Went back home at 2135hrs. aight!
Goodbye!

[b, imy!]

2009-08-19T12:18:00.003+08:00

Aint she cute? hehe. Seriously i miss her like hell already.
Hey! I joined Tagged. haha! Im bored so decide to try it out. haha!!
Argh! I miss baby!!
She will be going back to her house this coming Friday. Coming back after Raya. sigh.
I really dont want her to go back. hehe. Im sure im gonna miss her like hell.
sigh.
To me shes change & i have no idea whether its better or worse. Our relationship is like fcuked up! Been fighting non stop. Whats going on sia? Is it me? Or is it she have lost interest in me?
B, if you really have lost interest in me, please tell me. I dont mind. =]
Argh whatever lah!!
Ape nak jadi, jadi lah.

[you aint the same, sumpah!]

2009-08-19T08:02:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, boring! Rashes all over! Then took pics of Tasha.
Well, i'll let the pictures do the talking. She step model. haha!
Enjoy!

&& ya, shes only 2. =D

[you aint the same.]

2009-08-18T07:45:00.001+08:00

Aku tau aku tgh masai.
Happy birthday to me! XD
Nothing diff, just like any other day. As for presents, some still owe me like AZYE! haha. Some already gave me in advance. As for my dad, he gave me a new hp! wuhhuu!
&& Baby thank you for your special gift too!!! You know i know. && sumpah its damn sweet!
Aight, yesterday didnt go anywhere then Yan called suruh turun. So went down meet them at rt bear around 7+ i guess. Then meet chotetnaana at my plaground area. Balik, plan going to westcoast canceled as westcoast come to us. =D Serious, banyak makan!
Klah, off to play games.
Thanks you guys for the wishes! Appreciate! =]

[Happy Birthday to YAN today!]

2009-08-17T09:09:00.004+08:00

Countdown 08'
Seriously, im totally drunk in that pic. haha! Aight.
Yesterday went to Boonlay watched kude kepang. Once again i stand trough out the whole event. Penat lah sey. Then me, Baby, Az & Azye went to buy ciggy. Then badluck strike. It rained heavily. Baby bought an umbrella. She & azye use it as me & az walk in the rain. Gentlemen lah kan? hahaha!
But one thing make me hate watching kude kepang, too many matreps! Rimas sia! Then a guy want Baby & fad's n.o. Baby?! Lagi lah binget! So me & Baby went back home at 21hrs. Otw back bumped to Chotet. Miss that botak. =D
Aight! Nak main game!! Btw, Happy Birthday to me! Lots & lots of presents lah sey!
goodbye!

[rashes!]

2009-08-14T11:43:00.003+08:00

Hari Raya 2008
Az & me looked the same kankankan? haha! We are siblings. =D
Totally bored lahsey! Every single day is the same. sigh.
Kawan-kawan ku! Kalau lah korang ader event nak keluar dari Jurong, inform lah aku. Aku nak ikot! =D
Been soo long since last step out from this place. See how boring my life is?
sigh!
Goodbye lah! Too bored!

[it aint the same nomore.]

2009-08-13T09:05:00.004+08:00

Uchuk! Shes grown big now. & kinda a coward. haha. But still aggresive & playful.
Oh i love my cat!
Aight nowadays been spending my life infront of this comp playing games.
National Day didnt go anywhere as i have NO money at all, but planned to meet up with Az & the gang at Marina but, Marina? No thankyou. =D
Baby is different nowadays. Hmm...
Acually i got nothing to say. haha!
Oh ya! Changed layout. Back to last time.
I prefer simple lah. haha!
Goodbye!

[peaceful]

2009-08-03T08:04:00.002+08:00

Seriously, things are gettin worse.
Sumpah, i have no time for bullshits, but wth.
Seriously, i want to settle things fast cause i hate lame shits stuff buggin me.
K whatever lah eh. Drop that lame topic.
blablabla....

K, yesterday went to 746, ade kude kepang. Im bored acually, stakat teman kan baby.
Sweet kan? hahaha!!! From just me, Baby, Az & Yan, as time flies, came along, Azye, Fyiee, Fad, Watyy, Afiq, Epin, Ina, Huda, Hamizah and blablabla. too many people lah senang kate. =D
I stand all the way. Penat nak mampos!

kla, Nak main game. haha!
goodbye!

[bbl tak boleh, tumbuk muke org boleh.] kan az? haha!

2009-07-31T10:46:00.004+08:00

2008

Trough[watever the spelling is?] good & bad times, AzChakie. =D
Seriously, he's the greatest friend i ever had.
He's easy-going, funny, understanding, trustworthy & mostly, buang terbiat! HAHA!
imy az! haha

k, Im bored. Miss all my friends... & weirdly, i miss school?

2009-07-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

At last people!!
Got back internet. Got new computer too lahsey!!
Seriously screen dah serupe TV. haha!!
Next stop, X-box 360. haha!
Also waiting to buy Sims 3. wuhoo!
But theres one big problem people.
Going to move soon. Downgrade to 3room.
sigh.
Mane nak letak 2 comp?
oh well.

btw,
Az; favour ah, takmu sedih2.
Pai; sigh, speechless ku ngok kau.
Shaleen; Baby! ilyt! muahmuah!

2009-05-12T15:55:00.001+08:00

Mikyo, Wawan & Taby,
wish you guys luck.
takecare. =]
[sigh]

2009-03-20T18:50:00.002+08:00

An's back!!!
hehehe. sorry people. no internet at home.
like fcuk kan!!!
totally bored at home with nothing to do.
tmr going to sentosa!! weeheee.
now at chotet,s house.
kle nothing to do. people, ill link u guys u soon.
goodbye!

2008-11-12T16:00:00.001+08:00

Beliving it or not?
hmm.
rough life.

2008-09-05T13:21:00.011+08:00

irritating brother.
Greeno
yan
AzChakie
B! sebok ah!
she's not in the mood
Twins.
Hello! On the 3rd Sept when to library. Kecoh gile! Dah macam library bapak kite gitu lah kan Az? hahaha. Yan & Farid came late. People busy studying im busy drawing. Kinda bored for me, so i decided to take pics. hahaha!
nothing better to do seriously. Then Baby got bored she draw my left hand. hahaha!
bubblebubble! Baby's song; Kepunyaanya, will be having a part 2 of it. With some editing & will be featuring Az; Djchakie[who will be rapping] =]
Ill upload it when we're done. =D
bye assholes!

[World Peace!]

2008-09-02T17:59:00.002+08:00

Puteri Elfa Natasha.
Im back people. && Selamat berpuase kpd semue umat islam. =D
This few days is soo damn bored. Cant wait for Raya. hahaha!!! MoneyMoneyMoney!
Ytd went to pdk after Buke. Took vd of Baby & Idah. haha! Music vd lah kan. hahaha
If i get the vd, ill upload it. haha.
aight. im tired. wanna call Baby up. bye readers!

[Baby! ily!]

2008-08-05T22:31:00.002+08:00

I admit i miss her. Didnt even spend much time with her today. Shes busy with her dance. I understand.
I totally have NO mood for tonight. Im sleepy but my eyes just cant close. Im fcuking hungry but i just cant eat. WTH?
Yesterday was our anniversary, but its not even like one. I acually forgot it was.
Nowadays has been soo boring!
haiyo. Im out of words. Goodnight assholes!

[fcuk! imy]

2008-07-22T20:36:00.003+08:00

Im home! tired sey. haha
freestylin under the void deck. bored. hee =D
got nothing much to post.

heres a video of me & baby at my place when we're bored. haha
really hilarious to me. baby is acting daymn goofy. enjoy watchin. bye!
=]

2008-07-21T07:15:00.002+08:00

My weekend was daymn tiring.
On Friday, part of PF went to Pagoda[Chinese Garden]. The scenery was nice & the fishes are big sia! haha Camwhored like hell & im always the photographer. hmph!
On Saturday, went to JYC[Jurong Youth Centre] Dance prac. But me & Az didnt dance. haha
We took Pictures & Joke all the way. hahaha. Then we played pool there.
Then went to Taman Jurong. blablabla.
At Saturday night, me, Baby & Pai followed Fad & Fiqa to Esp meet up with their Aunt.
Then off to East Coast. Met Up with the Bdk Tanglin & went back home the next day.
On Sunday, reached Jurong at around 9am. Baby & Fiqa went to Pai's house. I want back home. Washed up, & off to Pai's Place. Sleep until its 5pm. Then went back home again.
& off to Pondok to meet up with BAby. Sit for a few mintues. & HOME!
Ill upload the pictures soon. =]

[i miss school]

2008-07-08T20:51:00.002+08:00

Hello.
lets talk bout on my 1yr 1 mth. things werent according to plan. had a big fight at first. haiyo.
went to somerset to catch shahidah dance, but we missed it. daymn! then head to esp.
but me azye, az, baby & 3 irritating bustards went back home first.
bored sia.
tomorrow is pai's birthday. haha. sabo! dah 16 sey die! hehe
cant wait for my birthday. hehe.
baby is too busy with her dance nowadays. understandunderstood. =D
aight gotta call her now. =]
goodnight people.

[nice&slow]